Packing My Bags

 Well, Tuesday night I fly back to Virginia. I hope to be busy with friends and I hope that none of them avoid contacting me in fear that I've not remembered them or don't care anymore. I hope that I still have friends there despite how long I've been gone. I'm always up to hang out with the ones I care about - and I hope they know that. I expect this to be a busy summer, but hopefully a fun one.

 Guildenstern is seeing about getting me permission to go to Sherando the last two days of school there, so that would be nice, though nerve-wracking. I left a lot of people behind, and many of them I know I should not seek out or encourage friendliness with them, but sometimes it's hard to help it. I can't seem to remember the bad with the good in retrospect, and I make too many excuses for the ones who have wronged me and put me through unhealthy romantic relationships and unhealthy friendships as well.

 Living with Doug and Darcy shouldn't be too bad, and I'm looking forward to getting some real space between myself and my parents and this dreadful loneliness. I've been through a lot of things that no one is fully aware of, and probably never will be. Shame is a powerful force.

 But nevermind all that, life should be looking up. I hope to get with my sister this weekend and spend some time with Libby and Kaitlin as well. (Time to watch some Holy Musical B@man!) I sincerely hope to become closer to Brittany and Fawzia again, and maybe the five of us (Brittany, Fawzia, Libby, Kaitlin, Myself) could get together at some point or another. It'd be really, really nice to feel like I have friends again.

 Well.. that was a lot more self pity than I usually throw out there. Sorry about that. :P I'm usually the humor. I guess it's protection, eh?

 Packing is difficult. I can't bring everything I want to. I AM bringing my entire Spyro collection though, no matter what. -.- I'm stubborn about that collection. <3 I don't know how many books I'll be able to bring.. as it is, I'll be lucky to fit the clothes I want to bring with me. Tomorrow is going to be filled with lots and lots of cleaning.

 I was contacted by a dear friend of mine who has decided to start playing Megiddo with a friend of hers and asked me some questions about it. I am tempted to send her the file I have of everything that happened during that mess, but I don't think I will. I hope that place burns in hell. (Slightly amusing what I did there. You'd have to know the story and site to get it though, but it made me chuckle.)

 I watched a good deal of Merlin today, and an episode of Castle as well. I should probably resume packing..

~Rosencrantz